Workout was a marathon simulation of sorts - start out in 6:20s like I would for a marathon (spend 3 miles there) and then move into marathon pace for 7 miles (goal 6:05s) and then practice ACTUALLY picking up the pace for the last 3 miles (goal 5:55s). I knew this would be brutal, especially considering I haven't hit sub 6's for tempo work consistently - meaning my marathon pace is NOT 6:05 yet. This type of workout is SOOO what I need. I am very good at holding a pace (ahem: VERY), but suck royally at moving it down that last 5k. That's what I'll need to be able to do if I want to be able to compete at the level I want to compete. So - workouts like this written to be able to practice!!
I wish I could tell you that it went great. I finished it, so I guess that's a positive, but there were a LOT of negative thoughts and pauses during the workout. Luckily Brian was there to get me to start up again... but still. Paces were way off as well. Legs are recovering from late last week's struggle/fatigue, and my MP heart rate was reading around 9.0mph (vs. somewhere in the high 9's like I'd like it to be). I went by effort after one attempt to try to go faster & having to stop because my HR started to soar (on the 3 mile "easy" portion!) (plus, I stopped just because I was mentally weak, I won't hide it!). 9 mph was just where I was at, guess you can't force things when the body isn't allowing!
I know I have to be positive about workouts like this - after all, even with the 5 stops during the hard stuff, I had my heart rate where it should have been for a very long time. So the effort was there. And it's very good that I'm recognizing the need to spend 15-30 mins a day on my mental game every day NOW vs. later in the training cycle. I'll pull out one of Dr. Asp's CD's from before the Trials (one made specifically to help with long workouts like this, mental game surrounding workouts, positive thoughts & pain management).
I also just need to put on my big girl panties and ask myself if I really do want this. I have such an amazing opportunity, and need to take advantage of it by making the most of every training session and especially these hard ones (since I only have 2 hard opportunities a week!).
|Yeppers. Someone did. Maybe I should anoint one of my pairs as my "big girl panties". Wear them when I have the need to kick some ass.|
Before the start of the last 3 mile segment - which I wasn't supposed to be stopped anyway - I told Nate I was going to take this segment a mile at a time. He offered the fact that that probably wasn't the purpose of the workout (since as stated before, purpose was to start moving pace downward at this mark - practice a fast marathon finish).
Fast forward to me finishing the 3 miles (not sure average pace - maybe low 6's? So definitely faster than the 10 miles that preceded it (full disclosure: I was afraid to really hurt until 1 mile to go, so really didn't start playing with the speed until then)). After obligatory treadmill lean and gasping for air, Nate said, "See, you CAN do this!". SOOO true. I just have to believe it before I start, and not worry about what the future will entail. Take it a tenth of a mile at a time. Cover up that dam* treadmill clock so I'm focused on effort and not how slowly distance is moving and how much I have left.
|Brian, who has become SUPER FIT and FAST since running with us last fall. Definitely stronger than me! It'll be fun to have team TNT together again this Spring. I think Brian will give us all a run for our money!|
But I WILL be more mentally strong/positive, etc next time!!!
Question of the day: Thoughts? Similar mental blocks? Things that have helped you to get out of it, overcome?